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Tom's avatar

Best wishes Eb!

You were one of the people whose strength in sobriety blew me away when I first decided to quit. Im at 316 days now, I wouldn’t have believed that was possible without people like you.

I hope you find your way back to lasting peace however that looks for you! ❤️

Ebony L's avatar

Thank you so much, Tom! You don’t know how much that means. I’m so happy you’re going strong ❤️

Tom's avatar

Be kind to yourself! You already know you’ve got the strength x

Mignonette's avatar

It’s the actual goodbye to your only friend that has sat with you through it all that’s weirdly painful. Even if you know, by now, that they never stay the night.

Ebony L's avatar

Oh absolutely. There is nothing good that comes of it. Thank you ❤️

Becky Handley (she/they)'s avatar

Hi Ebony, I have to be honest, I was wondering what the f was going on when I read your last post. Mainly though, I was worried about you. But, upon reading other people's comments, I just felt like I had got it wrong or was projecting my own shit on to you. I am glad you are getting back to yourself. Take care. 🖤

Ebony L's avatar

Thanks Becky. I noticed your (rightful!) reaction and it was a good wake-up call, so thank you ❤️

Kassie's avatar

Yessss what a joy to wake up and read your writing again! A great start to a Monday morning.

Your strength to keep getting back on the horse is what defines you, nothing else ☀️

Ebony L's avatar

You’ve got me welling up here, grrrrl. Miss you ❤️

Gudrun Aubertin's avatar

I’ve been hoping you’re doing okay 💕 thank you for your brave writing and your honesty about the struggle. Please take care, be kind to yourself, and stay safe.

Ebony L's avatar

Thank you for your support, Gudrun - it means the world ❤️

Tygre Merritt's avatar

Thanks for sharing so openly.

May your troubled waters soon smooth.

Ebony L's avatar

Thanks Tygre, I’m feeling positive. Not manically delusionally positive, thankfully, but more ‘resolved’ in my decision. Hope you’re well! ❤️

Tygre Merritt's avatar

I am well, thanks.

Resolved sounds Very steadying, good for you.

The Itinerant Bookseller's avatar

I wish you all the best. Getting sober is hard work. Staying sober is even harder. The sad thing is, we convince ourselves that we cannot cope without booze even while the booze is the main thing preventing us from coping. When I was at the end of my drinking, I was chronically malnourished, my mouth bled if I ate solid food and I threw up blood every morning - yet I was convinced I had it under control. The obsession with “the next drink” and mental gymnastics you describe brought it back to me clearly. Remember - the first drink does the damage and the rest just follow it up ! It is way easier not to start than to try and curb it. Good luck x

Alexandra Müller's avatar

Ebony, I love how you write. Your style and openness are unique, and it's an honour to read your work.

I'm learning about alcoholism, and it's helping me become more and more empathetic towards others. I'm realising there are so many things happening beneath the surface. Things I don't see and that people often don't share. Thank you for sharing and I hope the best for you! 🧡